с новым годом~!!

C Новым Годом~!!!
It means….happy new year!

Another year has passed, and yet it feels like it was yesterday when i started dreaming of being able to play and submerge beneath the deep snow! And to my unconsciousness, i’m now able to do so! Hehe.

First of all, i am very sorry for not updating this blog for quite a long time. Well, u see, things are getting very difficult as the time passes. Only now, the beginning of 10-days New Year Holiday, i’m able to spare my free time to keep this blog updated. Busy, yes, very busy. Each week i have tests, each week with tonnes of assignments, homeworks, new materials, and also new projects.

New projects? What’s that? Hehe. I’m emerging to a professional-career-like life. Right now, there are several projects that i’m handling. One of them would involve my position in IMAMRSC.com. Being approved as the webmaster of http://www.imamrsc.com and being among the top committee of Persatuan Pelajar Islam Malaysia (Islamic Medical Association of Malaysia, IMAM), Russian Students Chapter, had granted me with a load of responsibilites. However, thanks to my subordinates, with support from the administrative part, i’m proud with this website.

Another subliminal projects – not quite important, others may see it as unnecessary, but i love it! Yes, it means literally, I love IT~!! IT? Yeah, my hamster! Hehe. Spending about 500rubles having a hammie as a pet, is quite good actually. Believe me or not, though i’ve been a hamster keeper for about 2 weeks, i’m still thinking about the name of my new pet!

Only 3 days apart. From the new year. New year, means another year has passed. Everything’s older by a year. So as me. Really couldn’t believe that time goes by so quick~!!! With this kind of speed, i’m pretty sure that 6 years in Russian will gone, as if it was a day! Miahaha~!! I pray to Allah so that He grant me a superb physical fitness, a fantastic mental capabilities, loyal friends, easy yet challenging life. InshaAllah..

Being in Russia – though only for 3 months, had taught me a lot of things. I learn about responsibilities much more than those time when i served as a BWP. I learn about quality of life much more than those time when i lead my life peacefully in Malaysia. I learn about trustworthy in love much more than those time when i fell in love for the first time. If somebody would ask me, what kind of 2006 has been to me? I will tell that, 2006 – It’s the year of unforgettable experiences, and  valuable knowledge.

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Now, about my current life. I’m quite having troubles right here. Huhu. Not trouble s with myself, actually. But troubles with people surrounds me. I dun noe what’s their problem with me, but it seems like they’re always trying to mess up things with me. For example, one of my groupmates. Acting as though she was trained to be leader, trying to argue with my leadership, questioning me about  abstract value and ‘perkara ghaib’ as nawaitu, ikhlas n so on. She’s questioning whether me being the group leader, doing job sincerely (ikhlas) or not. Hey, if u really that kind of ‘ikhlas’, you would be ikhlas in having Islam as ur deen, by wearing a hijab! U argue with what Allah have decided, yet u questioned about my leadership? You’re spitting towards the atmosphere la, shame on you! (nice proverb, eh? hehe)

Another troublesome person – my roommate. I think he was born with laziness la… And also i think he used to depend on everyone, for everything! Imagine, it’s only me doing the cooking for the whole week! And as for he? He’s doing nothing. Not even washing the dishes and pans! What is he expecting? Me doing all the things, cooking, washing dishes, buying food and so on? Yes, buying food too! It’s always being me! He submerged into some kind of ‘chicken business’, yet when our room ran out of chicken, it’s me who paid for the chickens and carried them, all on my own, back to our room! And when our room ran out of rice (beras), all he does just to buy a loaf of bread, to feed on his own stomach?? And then it goes for me to go to the produkti in the cold weather, to buy a packet of beras, which is sufficient for both of us! What do you think? Of what role is he playing? He, when came back from the class, ate whatsoever i’ve cooked, n then started to lay on the bed sleeping~!! And during the midnight only he’ll wake up and start studying, making a lot of noises, pavtarit materials, using the lamp disturbing my tight sleep!! URGHH~!! I’ve never ran into this kind of roommate before. Chip in INTEC was MUCH better than he is. Jimmy in MRSM also much more better, much entertaining, at least. So does Ustaz. And Nik Fahmi. And others. They’re all much better than this time! There goes another challenge for me in this cold, snowy land….huhu…God, give me strength!

All sort of my surrounding problem, actually goes back to me. I’m a kind of person who don’t really like messing up with people. I’m just a defensive person. Some sort of that. It’s been years since my last aggressive stances. I dun like being angry. I dun like hating others. For me, its a non-profitable attitude – hatred. But when the conditions get worse, like this, what should i do? When i lost my first-level temper on something/one, i just mencarut2 and almost all the worst words in the world would come out of my mouth! That’s my first level temper. If i lost my 2nd level temper, like i did when i was in fifth form, i slapped somebody. Also, punched him on the stomach. and spitted on his face. So far in my life, i’d only lost my 3rd level temper when i was in primary school. To beat up my ‘enemy’ at that time till he couldnt stand. And i nearly lose my title as Ketua Pengawas that time. Luckily it’s that title which backs me up.

I hate to hate somebody. So please don’t make me hate anybody. You can hate me as much as you want, but believe me, you’ll never want me to lose my temper on you. Not even the first level of temper.

So, i have a question – how to get rid of somebody, which is useless yet troublesome, out of your life, without killing him/her??

There goes the words in my mind.

Executing delete command. Deleting from memory. Items deleted. A backup has been created in Leokid’s Life Friendster Blog.

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Committee member – with Dato’ Khalis, Duta Besar Malaysia ke Moscow.

At an art exhibition show in Nizhniy.

With a Russian Hero. Err..actually at the Russian Heroes Monument.

And now…the Russian’s Heroins~!! Hehe.

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Anyway, 2006, thanx a lot! You have been a great year! However, hoping that 2007 will be better than you. With a lot more achievements to be made!

To All,
Welcome to a new year!

i’M noT goInG hoMe~!! iN faCt, i’M nOt goiNg aNywHeRe~!!!

Hoho…a series of tragic events kept occurring recently, which have dispersed my planned n intention for this winter holiday~!!

first of all…the bureaucracy problem. the common, same problem for each and every governmental system in the world, n yet again i face it here in the land of Russia. I dunno whether the higher educational system hierarchy here is same in malaysia or not, but as for russian, under my faculty (FOIS – Faculty of International Students), there are 1 Dean and 3 Vice Deans. The Dean himself is responsible only for administrating and management as well as external and diplomatic issues, while the other 3 vice deans are the one who responsible for the students affair, education n so on, as well as for this winter holiday~!!

and as for this winter holiday, according to the normal academic year schedule, it should start at 20th January 07. And i stand firmly that i am not going back home if it’s flight is later than 15th January (because it ain’t worth it to spend 660USD for a 2 weeks relaxing at home). If i want to start my holiday earlier personally, i have to do the chemistry final exam earlier~!! So i asked my chemistry lecturer, whether i can sit for the examination earlier, and with some sort of ‘bodek-bodek’ element (i told u in my previous posts she’s really easy to be pleased~!!), she said that i can do the examination whenever i want, as early as this 25th December! Plus, she said that she even going to provide me with the question a week earlier than the examination~!! Hehe. But special requirement for me to sit for the examination earlier is, i have to get the permission from the dean’s office.

So, i went and meet Irina Mihailovna, who is my 1st Vice Deans, as well as my biology lecturer. I asked her for the permission to do the exam earlier, and she said it is possible, except that i have to settle down all my zachot (credit test) for each subjects so that i’ll be given the stamp mark from the dean’s office to acknowledge me that i’m allowed to sit for the exam. Then i look at my biology class schedule, to find out that my zachot for biology is scheduled on 18th of January~!! W.T.f!@@! So i met her again (my biology lecturer, a.k.a vice dean), to ask permission to do the zachot earlier. And to my surprise, she didnt want to give that permission~!! She said that each class have a new topic, so i cannot be able to skip any class and sit for the zachot earlier as i have to attend all classes and cover up all topics!!

There goes my bureaucracy problem. If this vice dean wont give me the permission, i resorted to the second vice dean – the microbiology lecturer, INTERNATIONAL student vice dean yet doestn know how to speak english. I approach her with two request – to do the examination earlier, and to do the examination without having to complete my zachot. And yet, after quite long debating in russian, after several phone calls she made to whom i dont know, she simply concluded that -First Year Students are not allowed to take the examination earlier~!! wTF!~!@!@@#
The reason she gave is that we, the first year student, started the academic semester a month late from the others, therefor we are not allowed to end it earlier.

So i planned to wait till next week so that i’ll meet Irina Mihailovna again and discuss this matter in depth. I also postponed my trip to moscow to buy the flight ticket, twice due to this. My maybank account is already filled with rm2800 for the flight ticket, given by my father.

Up until last night, Husni came to me and show me the proposal of Islamic Medical Symposium. Somewhat i quite interested in it! The symposium, which will be attended by quite a number of famous ‘celebrities’ such as Dr.Latiff (Cardiologist HUKM, President of Islamic Medical Association Malaysia), the two astronauts – Dr. Sheikh and Dr. Faiz, the head of dentistry department HUSM, a doctor from Qatar, the President of FIMA n so on! The topics covered up by the symposium also are quite interesting, such as medical fiqh, space medicine, Boundaries of Medical Aid etakdali. The symposium is planned to be held on 31st January and 1st February in Malaysian Embassy, Russia. Meaning, i have to make a decision here – either to go back to malaysia or to attend the symposium.

The night, i thought about it a lot of time – i really want to go to the symposium, but i also want to go home. It’s not that i missed home so much and got homesick, but thinking of my father and mother willing to support me going back home, indicates that they missed me so much. We’re not a rich family, and being able to provide me hard-to-get-rm2800 instantly without doubt surely show that they really want to see me. I don’t want to abandon their hope.

Then i made my mind – i will not going home, instead i will be going somewhere to europe, then by the end of january return to moscow, attend the symposium. Plus, i already have that rm2800 in my account and another 500USD january allowance, which is definitely enough for a week vacation in europe. However, last night, was  the last day of Aeroflot cheap fare promotion, so i instantly booked a return flight ticket from Moscow to Berlin~!! And i was planning that this morning i’ll go to Aerofloat Gorkava’s Branch to issue it. Well, this plan is dependent on the permission gave my father.

So, this morning, i woke up early and rang my father. the conversation was some-sort like this.
Firstly, i told him that i am unable to return home for the winter holiday because i’m attending that symposium. (I didnt told that i’m planning to go to europe before that!)
Then, he said that it’s okay. "Oh, kalau hang taknak balik takpa la camtu. Boleh abah bayar balik duit tu kat orang. Abah pun pinjam duit orang ja. Duit rm500 mak hang pun nak guna jugak"
At that time, for a moment, some sort of feeling swifted through my heart. I was quite touched. My eyes were filled with tears, yet i kept it from flowing out.

For me to going back home, perhaps they think that i’m seriously homesick, they even willing to borrow money from their friends to support my flight fare! Yet i’m planning to spend the money, which were originated from the mortgage of their dignity, to enjoy myself in europe??!! What kind of son am i?? The plan of vacation vanished immediately. "Em, elok gak camtu. Syam pun boleh lepak kat sini ja cuti ni. Tak pun jalan-jalan kat moscow ja. Bulan depan mara masuk duit, so abah ngan mak tak payah bagi duit dah."

My father – a professional – being the Perak State Deputy Director of Immigration, he surely have some kind of respected view from his subordinate. He is the boss of the Pengkalan Hulu – Thailand border. He have a lot of professional friends, ranging from tokey kedai mamak, the mayor of Betong Thailand, even Tan Sri Aseh Che Mat – Ministry of Home Affair was his best friend when they were young! Yet he dare to put his professionalism and dignity into ante as he willing to borrow the rm2000 to support my flight fare – it made me realized that being a responsible father is far better than being ’somebody’s’ friend.

So, i decided. I will not going home. I will also not spending my vacation in europe. I will only rest, hibernating here in nizhniy, until the end of January where i’ll go to moscow and attend the symposium. Then from that symposium, i’ll spend another 3-4 days (depending on my budget) to have a sightseeing in moscow. I believe that’s the best for me. How do i know? Because that’s the decision that tranquilizes me!

This world..is black~?

We come into this world
And We are all the same
And in that moment there’s no one to blame

But this world is black
And hearts are cold
And there’s no hope
That’s what we’re told
And we can’t go back
It won’t be the same
Forever changed
By the things we’ve seen , seen

Living in this place
It’s always been this way
There’s no one doing nothing
So there’s nothing changed
And I can’t live when this world
Just keeps dying
It’s dying

People always tell me, this is part of the plan
That God’s got everybody in his hands
But I can only pray that God is listening
Is he listening?

But living in this world
Growing colder everyday
Nothing can stay perfect
Now I see

but this world is black
And hearts are cold
And there’s no hope
That’s what we’re told
And we can’t go back
It won’t be the same
Forever change
By the things we’ve seen

We come into this world
And we are all the same
And in that moment there’s no one to blame

But we’re living in this world
Growing colder everyday
Nothing can stay perfect
Now I see
This world is black
And hearts are cold
And there’s no hope
That’s what we’re told
And we can’t go back
It won’t be the same
Forever change
By the things we’ve seen

Turn on channel seven at a quarter to eight
I see the same damn thing it’s just a different day
And no one really knows why this is happening…..

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Hold on, kid~!! Just hold on, and everything will passed by smoothly~! Have faith in Allah, and have faith in yourself, no matter what!