All these life i’ve devoted myself thinking positively of other people.
No matter what happen, i always believe there’s a good explanation.
Even when someone hurts my feeling, i believe he/she has a good reason.
Even if he/she doesnt, i’ll create one for them.
Guess that my optimistic, blunt positive thinking is the one that have been hurting myself.
I’m afraid of thinking positively. Because each time i do so, i ended up hurted even more.
I’m a confident person, i would say. But i find it hard for me to trust others.
Think positive – husnul zhon. Should assure my heart.
The problem is – the truth is always not the one i’ve been thinking positively.
Maybe i’m not being realistic.
And the truth is the most painful.
Still i try to make excuses, though the truth is revealed.
Hoping that it would assure my heart.
But why it hurt even more?
I’m afraid, to think positive.